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2004-04-08T22:14:00.000+08:00

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2004-04-08T19:59:00.000+08:00

so sianz..... whole day stuck in the office without doing any work.... to be exact, i start on working abit here and there at 530..... lol watched dirty dancing 2 last nite.... it was nice sia.... but its reviews were bad.... but maybe it is bad, just tat i was too mesmerize by the male lead, tat i love the show as well.... keke..... i fell in love with the male lead at the start of show, the

for fun...

2004-04-06T20:58:00.000+08:00

can make out the pics? see how bored i was in office?

sos...

2004-04-05T13:25:00.000+08:00

ok new layout up..... but seems to have some problem with the design... haiz.... so give some comments to improve it ya? and i realise i onli noe all bad points abt myself.... and there's the whole list there, lol..... any1 noes wat's my + points? hahahahah

new layout!!!

2004-04-05T01:57:00.000+08:00

yesh! finally do up this stupid layout.... new link: veracious-realm.blogspot.com ppl update pls... tkz dude

2004-04-02T13:40:00.000+08:00

feeling shitty today.... dono y, dono how.... so tired i am,in the sense of living...... toking, eating, thinking, even seeing seems to drain my energy away..... haiz..... maybe coz there are so much ugliness, cruelty, unreal facts ard...... or maybe i am just locking myself up, and threw the keys into the black hole in the universe...... i sense alot of troubles, but i see none i sense alot of

2004-03-30T14:37:00.000+08:00

You have a Lost Soul. No one is really sure whatthat can always mean, because it can be definedin many ways. As Legend goes, lost souls werethe spirits of passed away people who areneither in heaven nor hell. They walk theearth, brooding mysteriously, always appearingwhen you expect it least. So hence, if you havea Lost Soul, then you are probably veryinsecure and shy. Stuck in your own little

2004-03-30T14:33:00.000+08:00

FROZEN QUEEN You dont want love to come through to you. You likeit the way you are. To be unreachable, no needto show feelings. Hiding everything inside you.You are already used to it. You say yourselfthat you dont need anyone, that you stand onyour own two feet or that you dont have timefor these things. But in reality you are scaredto get hurt. You feel save where you are: byyourself, nobody

2004-03-20T23:52:00.000+08:00

forced myself to change the speakers last nite..... kekeke..... work till pretty late so i onli get to test it out this afternoon..... it was v nice..... thou onli 2.1, i think it is really gd enough since my room is small n cramp with things..... kekeke spent this afternoon cleaning out my room too..... thou there's still alot of things, but it is much presentable now.... hur hur.....

2004-03-19T13:41:00.000+08:00

think i sounded overly heavy in last entry, actually i not feeling much when i was writing the entry.... lol.... i guess i got out from the wrong side of bed today.... got a v bad stiff neck now, felt heaty..... in conclusion guess i am falling sick.... zzz found this article on net yesterday.... 'I’m giving people permission to say, ‘This is OK.’ You do not have to feel shameful, degraded,

2004-03-17T22:29:00.000+08:00

this morning was listening to the radio when they were toking abt sporeanz' attitude..... i find it quite true.... we have been in a well protected environment such tat we are like some spoilt brat....... for example, in other countries, ppl will scold, say watever foul languages, and the next min, things will be just like normal again..... but in spore, whenever this type of thing happens, law

2004-03-15T23:16:00.000+08:00

finally overcome my abit of my laziness, opened up the package of the speakers i bought on sat..... had a really damn hard time looking for its startup manual...... and it is kept between the sub-woofer n the styrofoam holding it..... -_-' but now it is siting on the ground at its corner, still intact in its plastic covers...... lol as i said, i overcome abit of my laziness.... zzzz....

2004-03-15T00:26:00.000+08:00

k i'm back to normal more or less ba.... *shrug* lol had a really great time yesterday..... in the early afternoon, i went to mit my yue4 nan2 nan4 ming2 jie3 mei4, lol, to go crash those open houses of uniz....... first stop, nus, sooo many ppl, and hot day! wanna go ktv rite there n then lol.... i am quite int in the comp sci.... coz there's this communication n media in its second yr......

2004-03-11T00:38:00.000+08:00

passed by siglap road for the past 2 days, dragged out some memories...... rem some time ago when my best budd was drunk, vomiting by the roadside, lying there too.... lol..... remind me of the place where my budd first know of mi smoking, was shocked? disappointed? i not sure..... but the pub we frequented closed some time ago, replaced by another..... onli a few short visits, but the memories

2004-03-09T23:50:00.000+08:00

sososo angry today..... so i concluded is a bad day for me... :< shd have known btr than to go squeeze the miserable toilet at the time of going home..... and have to met tat stupid bitch! if i were a dog, there and then, i would have jumped up and bite off her stupid nose, scarring her forever and ever after!!!!! the matter was too shameful to be told, so gals(u 2 noe who u r) not say anything..

2004-03-06T10:27:00.000+08:00

been slping late this few days, coz i always stayed up in the night reading my book, memoirs of a geishar..... now in the office, with my soul still on my bed at home.... the other day was having my lunch, when a gal on a scooter rode by..... she was stunning! coz i saw a few other ppl, following in her direction as she pass by.... well, she was wearing a red, helmet that covers half a head one

2004-03-04T22:28:00.000+08:00

was staring at this screen a few hrs ago, and gave up on blogging..... now back at staring..... din noe wat to write, but wanted to write...... feeling pretty shitty, easily agitated.... i know my patient isnt so gd, so is temper..... but not as easily provoked.... i guess.... i always hear/see those couples saying: i love u FOREVER...., i will never let u go for watever reasons..... etc etc...

2004-03-02T16:30:00.000+08:00

am feeling so so so bored, tired, irritated, agitated.... u name it, i felt it..... might be the cup of coffee i have just finished.... :< still stuck in the office doing stupid flash, numbers, numbers, numbers, algebras too, argh! going mad...... listening to Kelly Clarkson - A Moment Like This.... dono y, dono how, tears find its way to my eyes.... but it din flow out.... nope, just wet my

2004-02-28T23:11:00.000+08:00

heard from news, this july's intake for NTU and NUS, SAT I is not a neccessity...... zzzz.... one or two yrs ago, SAT was a need to the entrance of the UNI in spore, and now? change was so fast! have been taking bus to and fro work everyday.... and i getting disguted by singaporean's attitude.... YUCKZ! just a few days back, on a crowded bus(morning rush), u know those seats tat face the sides

2004-02-27T09:49:00.000+08:00

must try this out to see ur Employment Characteristic. here's a little part of mine, keke : Although Jacqelyn is often outgoing and chatty, she can at times be quite introspective. She may not of course see herself as an entertainer, but she nevertheless has all the qualities needed for the stage. She may seem shy on interview, but put her on a platform with an audience, and you will see the

2004-02-27T01:05:00.000+08:00

guess u guys have heard abt the animation created by nyp students showing on tv mobile.... click here to see all..... this show thingy is like the one ahmad (my poly 3d animation teacher) took part in last yr.... check it out ppl, some are not bad..... thou alot are.... erm.... well u know.... lol

2004-02-26T00:02:00.000+08:00

watched the show this evening.... not bad, worth watching..... was so tired, tat i slept on the bus.... then suddenly i heard a guy's voice and i jerked awake! lol.... quite surprise, coz i had my earphones on.... and the music was NOT soft loh!! lol.... i wonder how loudly did the old man called mi...... quite embarrass, but i still am v greatful to him.... keke came home and then send my

2004-02-23T00:41:00.000+08:00

been dutifully going home straight after work for the past wk, and staying at home in the weekends.... sigh... not tat i am boring or wat.... just tat there aint any programs at all..... haiyo mi circle of frenz are small, yaya..... went to fren's house to take vcd, onli then i realise i can get a v v nice pic of sunset at her corridor!!! i've been to her place for, i think not less than 5 yrs,

2004-02-18T12:21:00.000+08:00

am stoning away in the office now.... so bored.... read the last sun newpaper last nite..... (yaya, i'm slow... lol) well, sat was the v-day, so the paper is all abt love thingy..... or rather more abt sex issue..... it is talking abt "romance or sex" for this v-day...... since 3 big magazine co-incidentaly includes enclosed sex guides on this particular month.... so there's alot of surveys,

2004-02-15T11:57:00.000+08:00

watched moulin rouge earlier this evening..... it was a v v nice show.... a waste tat i've missed it when it was out on cinema then...... dono y, this question just pops into my mind there n then...... would u choose to lost ur gf/bf to another person or lose him/her forever to death god?? and it is a situation tat u get to choose, and onli these 2 choices...... which is worse??

2004-02-12T13:14:00.000+08:00

back from yet another lunch time..... the boredom just keeps growing everyday man.... felt tired, weak, no strength to even sit up straight..... >:| there are just some ppl out there who can onli share their woes with u period.... damn i am so fedup..... wtf! i think the onli thing on her mind is their own troubles, misery...... i hate to think tat i am just a person when they got trouble, they

2004-02-11T23:39:00.000+08:00

looks interesting.... You are a Revolutionary Woman! You could care less about the monarchy! You live for yourself! You're beautiful and kick-ass! And like a female-warrior. You're resourceful, smart, tough, street-smart. You live life for yourself and not as others dictate and refuse to be branded into a category. You live apart from world and society. Which Royalty Are You? Find out! By

2004-02-10T13:44:00.000+08:00

just came back from lunch hour.... sianz.... no mood to work at all sia.... :< yest the supervisors checked on our work, and there's alot of things needed to be changed...... so practically spend almost half a day in changing all the stuffs... worse of all is tat he wants us to complete one stack of script with 9 scenes by the end of this month.... and i took one whole week to finnish the first

2004-02-07T23:22:00.000+08:00

was heating up something earlier on, and i forgot abt it.... damn.... there's huge creaking sound and strong burning smell coming out from it now.... :< think the bowl in it was a goner.... maybe the pot too..... wth am i thinking sia..... finished part of an episode of Band of Bro..... this epi is toking abt the soldiers finding the camps where jews were held in..... the bodies n scenes looks

2004-02-06T21:49:00.000+08:00

put in the comment area in the past 1 n half hr..... tired... lol din really bothered to put it in the past, coz i tot a tag-board is enuff.... but now my dearest budd cannot see the web1000 pg, so i decided to put in this comment thingy.... web1000 really sux lar... might change it in near future... i think i am v v rich this month.... keke... cousin got me some accessories for bday.... i love

2004-02-06T01:07:00.000+08:00

today was the thaiphusum (din know the spelling) day for the indians.... well this is the cultural tat indian man was to carry a big n heavy metal thingy, with pins n needles piercing through their body as the support....... from my mem, i think the man have to be on diet for a month or so to prepare themselves for this special day.... and it is said to be not painful?! hmmm i wonder..... anw,

2004-02-02T12:40:00.000+08:00

just came back from fren's house.... lol was quite bored after a mid-nite show last nite, so when my fren suddenly took out the aeroplane board game, we just played with it! worse of all, just the 2 of us playing it!! whahaha we r the man!!! then ltr into the nite, decided to watch some vcds, so the 3 of us watched a chinese show..... lame, but the casts were gorgeous n handsomes hehe......

2004-01-28T21:24:00.000+08:00

today is an unlucky day for me..... don bother to give details liao.... lol been raining everyday since last thurs...... falling sick too.... haiz...... some guys out there were either too childish, or god damn chauvinist! they wan this want tat, but yet they can't accept this, or tat.... advance in thinking things tat r onli in favour to them, but simply ignore other matters....... haiz....

2004-01-25T02:54:00.000+08:00

got up early this morning to take the stupid SAT.... wasn't V difficult...... but it just comes down to the question of gd result or a bad one...... third day of the chinese new yr..... and my fren came crying to me...... second time, this yr..... and it seems more serious this time..... haiz..... just felt sad when she broke down...... dono wat to say..... if she was in front of me, at least i

2004-01-22T16:13:00.000+08:00

Aquarius (Jan 21 - Feb 21) DO'S Aquarius are friendly and fascinating people. They have in-depth knowledge about various subjects and you can converse with them for hours without getting bored. They are capable of giving a lot of love that can be amazing. They have a very broad outlook of life and you can relax in their presence. They will always welcome your ideas and actions about

2004-01-20T22:24:00.000+08:00

Love test @ http://www.naucon.net/misc/tests/love_test01.htm 1. You are attracted to those who are unbridled, untrammeled, and free. 2. In the process of courtship, the approach that would make you feel irresistable is creative, never let you feel bored. 3. The impression you would like to give to your lover is stylish. 4. What you hate most in your partner is that the person is

2004-01-18T22:33:00.000+08:00

hmmm just wanna say this thing out! lol was on the train a few days ago, then a guy stands in front of me..... think he abit the high lar.... keke.... main point is, he is v handsome!!!! lol he looks lk a malaysian, i guess guess onli lar..... but he is ard the same height as me.... :< lol well.... back to the main point..... how handsome he is..... the first look, i see him lk okok..... the

2004-01-15T14:11:00.000+08:00

just finish my lunch..... v full..... am having an upset stomach today.... how i wish i can go home now :< bored ar.... finished my 2 assigned exercise on flash this morning, now nothing to do again.... haiz..... office life forever so sianz........... but i am lucky those guys having attachments with me are funny.... so i guess, so far so gd?! hmmm........ bored bored.... any1 can think of any

2004-01-11T20:50:00.000+08:00

the bad points of my horoscope: keke.... althou i don deny tat there is no truth...... but it makes me sounds lk some heartless person sia....... lol

2004-01-10T18:38:00.000+08:00

one fren just gave me a gd news....... she found her happiness after such long time....... another fren gave me yet another news...... i almost have to see her in a funeral, or maybe the hospital....... haiz...... she is having such a damn time..... not because she is alone, need a bf, but is tat something everyone is seeking tat made her lost so much control of herself..... if it weren't for

2004-01-02T18:21:00.000+08:00

watched the show "mona lisa smile" today..... not bad.... but will not really recommend it.... coz it is a show tat sets u thinking deep, rather than those u get wat u see...... and alot of ppl don lk this type..... might be boring, in another word..... the show is fine with mi, but i find tat it seems rather rushed for time in the way it is shown...... could have been more detailed..... hmmm,

2004-01-01T12:28:00.000+08:00

hehe 2004 is here!! actually dread this coming yr, but i had fun last nite...... lol.... erm actually quite a few things happen since last nite....... be it funny, gd or bad, i also dono.... lol so am looking forward now, hopefully will be v happening and fruitful yr ahead..... sometimes, we get blinded by matters tat we cannot achieve, matters tat we tot only will bring us happiness, thus,

2003-12-31T15:24:00.000+08:00

it's new yr's eve...... yupz 2004 is here in less than 9 hrs time..... love 2003, really love it.... but one has to learn to look in front, move forward...... so.... I'M GOING TO MISS U, 2003!! realise tat one's mood always influence ppl ard u, esp frenz...... so..... new yr's resolution, i shall stay as happy as i can...... but always ganna scold lame...... i am quite lame when cheerful....

2003-12-30T01:42:00.000+08:00

feeling withdrawn this few days..... don feel lk toking much le..... hmmmm 2004 coming le....... felt lk alot of things r left undone...... felt so useless..... hmmmmm

2003-12-25T04:35:00.000+08:00

christmas day has finally arrived...... had a v diff christmas eve today.... not the usual, rowdy, crowded, exciting christmas i had for the past few yrs, but a v quiet, peaceful, cold night....... went to a grp of old frenz gathering be4 i head down to poly'z clickz bbq...... feeling was totally diff..... earlier one was rather awkward..... some, more talkative ones will have to keep coming out

2003-12-24T00:44:00.000+08:00

just realise today, i have the serenity feeling........ in an uglier terms, no feeling, zombie...... lol i actually lk this feeling..... no happiness, no sadness, no feeling! lol.... maybe it is christmas eve tmr? silent night?? lol the most peaceful n holy night of the 365 days....... but when having this feeling, i will look v tired or no strength..... lk not enuff slp or wat....... haha

2003-12-21T23:55:00.000+08:00

once, all were so closed...... do lotsa bold things, happy things together...... since when did the bond lossen? isit me? or isit u? but realised i am not alone..... realise i am not the onli one having this feeling...... 2 outcasts? or is there actually more in number? maybe i did not try hard enough to strenghten the bond, but there just isnt any point, is there? the yrly even is nearing......

2003-12-20T23:58:00.000+08:00

finally reached my cosy hole in this world...... hee.. had a tiring day today..... went to several malls at town..... just to acc my fren on looking for a xmas gift for her fren...... thou i am wearing sports shoe, windy, in fact rainy day...... still felt v tired.... met my fren, she was late, as usual, and i was rather on time(not usual)! lol...... so i went to walk ard PS..... not really ARD

2003-12-18T22:51:00.000+08:00

saw the news of a new special breed of a butterfly a few days ago on the tv..... it is abt this special butterfly which was born with both the male n female breeding organs....... the ppl were so excited, claiming tat this is the first time since 20 yrs from the opening of the butterfly garden, which is in sentosa, tat such butterfly appears................. so sicko are these ppl............ i

2003-12-15T01:09:00.000+08:00

parents went for hol again the past wk end..... stay at home on fri nite, then went to fren'z house on sat nite........ drove alot.... fri, am a driver for the whole day...... then sat n sun also keeps driving ard..... sianz.... din do much at fren'z house...... play comp, cards, ps........... din slp too.... more lk a torturing nite?! lol.... then in the morning, went out to eat, drive up to a

2003-12-12T23:49:00.000+08:00

hmmm..... feel lk writing.... but dono write wat..... hmmm k today v tired... going to slp

2003-12-08T21:59:00.000+08:00

din have any program today, so i stayed at home the whole day..... had been dragging the chore of painting my room for wks....... so decided to start on my work after i wake up..... well, actually wanted to wake up earlier....... but....... hahaha oh well din eat anything and i started work.... stomach was growling madly when i was halfway throu my targeted area...... lol..... but there's

2003-12-07T01:03:00.000+08:00

3rd consecutive day, i went for shopping...... lol but today i actually had the mood, and bought quite alot of things........ maybe it has to do with the shopping companion......... lol (some ppl: don't swell, hoh.....) actually it has got nothing to do with the different ppl whom i going shopping with.... i think din enjoy much during the first 2 days is bcoz my frenz' whole mind is with their

2003-12-06T03:03:00.000+08:00

went out shopping today...... din buy anything, so was my shopping trip the day be4..... haiz.... all the things looks the same to me! not much mood too i guess.......... but i bought my perfume thou.... did a quick shop, get my fren'z things, then we head down to orchard so as to pass the gift to her bf........ wow, bday + xmas present, cost her 145 bucks! lol..... somemore it is on toys! lol..

2003-12-05T12:36:00.000+08:00

thinking back on the very first day i step into polytechnic, until this day, i just realise tat my life in poly was actually running in a circle..... lol i rem in the beginning, when i was still v shy, a loner in the sch, i rem lynn, fiona, nat always ask me to join them when in classes....... then as time goes, i get into a click with elaine, gear, fiona........ then i change again, clicking

2003-12-01T02:11:00.000+08:00

saw this a while ago in mirc(v funny!): * BoNz[A] has quit IRC (Quit (I hated going to weddings. All the grandmas would poke me saying "you're next!". They stopped that when I started doing it to them at funerals.)) sosososo sianz...... i have no life.... T_T suddenly have this urge to be lk the past, withdrawn myself from everyone, everything..... lol....... i've always heard ppl saying: "

2003-11-30T01:41:00.000+08:00

suddenly have this urge to blog...... so here am i.... having strange dreams recently.... mum says mayb becoz i gb too much...?! lol might be.... all the nightmares on animals too!! got spiders crawling down my hair onto body, mice crawling all over, and even snakes all over the place.... eeeee the tot of it is enuff to make my hairs stands.... ok enuff af the disturbing tots.... suddenly was

2003-11-25T14:19:00.000+08:00

today, i am suppose to mit up with my sec sch frenz today, but decided against it the moment i wake up...... dont noe y.... always sort of feel out of place when out with them.... maybe it is my own problem ba... maybe i just felt inferior when standing with them, mayb i just lost the feeling of going out with them anymore..... sigh..... thinking back, memories are always so sweet, so nice......

2003-11-15T16:42:00.000+08:00

am scared, v scared..... nv had i ever this kind of feeling be4.... so scared of somthing tat tears come when i thought of it....... i am scared of losing my granmother.... human are forever this cheap..... a person will nvr be tat important, tat popular, when they are alive..... it will always be until they are gone.... forever.... tat he/she becomes important, popular..... aint this shown on

2003-11-11T00:01:00.000+08:00

came back from my 6 days stay at batam..... first time in my life, stayed there so long..... was glad i decided to stay back after my frenz went back to spore...... had a v nice time to relax my mind, no need to think of anything, eat, slp, jalan jalan, drink, stone....... ya v v relax...... had a great time stoning! whahaha another thing tat am glad i went, was tat i confirm some thoughts i had

2003-10-29T10:32:00.000+08:00

this is the after effect of being under stress for a long long time, then at the moment of released......... sometimes, i am a person not good with words..... hmmm sometimes, somethings, pictures will speak louder than words....

2003-10-26T10:02:00.000+08:00

when a gal did something wrongly, i think her first reaction or action to the affected person is, saying sorry, trying to get forgiveness, then trying to make up for it with another suggestion...... when a guy did something wrongly, his first reaction was to fake ignorance, then trying to think of a lie to cover up for his mistake, so tat the party will feel tat he is innocent, not at fault.....

2003-10-23T01:01:00.000+08:00

My, gone through lots of hardship, groupmates Finally..... for the hard work of the past 3 months or so, (well, it is supposed to be 6 months.... but we dragged it, lol) FYP finally finished..... although am now one foot outside my grave, (coz still got the animation proj to go), am still not feeling on cloud nine.... dono y....... had this feeling of am disliked by everybody...... excluding

2003-10-14T03:23:00.000+08:00

saw the variety show featuring sun yan zi, the past sunday..... it was a program abt all her past, feelings, etc..... actually i din really pay much attention to the program, except a part, where she was introducing this song and tok abt her feeling there n then...... hmmm guess, she's not alone out there with this feeling...... exactly wat i am feeling rite now.... all reflected in this lyric.

2003-10-09T01:27:00.000+08:00

just came back from a celebration for one of my buddy... hee had fun shopping for the "presents". and i guess really gave her a big surprise..... but whether she is happy anot, i don't noe...... went to clementi for supper, saw this mad man shouting v loudly at a gal, might be her gf....... then he saw us looking, so he chase and shout at us all the way to the carpark..... siao! was quite sad,

2003-10-07T22:24:00.000+08:00

so irritated.......!!! argh! fyp is scheduled to be completed by this fri, so tat bugging can start next wk....... but every part seems to be 80 or 90 % done!!! there's still small little things here n there to add, to change, to adjust..... argh..... stress..... pekcek......

2003-10-04T00:55:00.000+08:00

was walking down orchard road to meet frenz at cineleisure....... then just so sudden i lk the feeling of being inside the big crowd of ppl..... the ppl were all in diff grps, some were in a hurry, some were just chatting away...... then i am me, alone, in my world there n then....... quite a nice feeling!! haha new discovery

2003-09-28T02:33:00.000+08:00

went out with my closest grp of frenz today, the guy's bday...... can be more fun if i din go after a tiring fyp discussion..... brain seems dead..... all 3 of them had brought their steads along, so the no. is 7 loh..... haiz.... got me xtra one.... went ktv, eat, then sat down to talk talk...... haiz..... tired... am so tired

2003-09-25T01:37:00.000+08:00

As u r walking along this long road together with a fren, til u came to a junction, where u turn left and she turns right........ and then as the both of u continues ur own journey, each get to know another fren or frenz....... as time goes, both of u stops turning back to look at each other, both looks forward, both forgotten abt the first long road that they had taken ages ago...... then one

2003-09-22T20:22:00.000+08:00

this month is a real drat for me..... f*** spent so much $.......... suay things happens...... argh :<

2003-09-18T22:39:00.000+08:00

around one or two months back, i rem i was still swearing and cursing my fyp teacher-in-charge....... but now things have changed! haha instead of hating this idiot for stressing us in our proj, i actually hold quite a high respect for him.... he really have lots of experience in alot of things tat we have not seen or even heard of.... well as the saying goes: jiang hai shi lao de la (old ginger

2003-09-13T00:52:00.000+08:00

everything in life has 2 or more sides, even every human being out there has not only one side of character..... some people that u've seen is just one side of their character, be it real or fake, he/she is not wat u might think he/she really is...... one moment is so close, so good, so mature, so understanding, once u turn ard, u might just got stabbed hard without realising it...... human r

2003-09-07T20:36:00.000+08:00

believe it? u r not seeing a real lady here....... hmmm shd i feel envious or stunned?

2003-09-05T14:03:00.000+08:00

continue...... Wind ==== Because I like a gal called leaf. Because she's so dependent on tree so I have to be a gust wind. A wind that will blow her away. When I first met her, it was 1 mth after I transfer to the new school. I saw a petite person looking at my seniors & me playing soccer. During ECA time, she will always be sitting there. Be it alone or with her friends looking at him.

2003-09-03T14:07:00.000+08:00

continue..... Leaf === During Pre-U days, I like to collect leaves. Why? Because I felt that for a leaf to leave the tree she has been relying on for so long it takes a lot of courage. During the 3 years of Pre-U I was on very close terms with a guy. Not BGR kind but as buddy kind. But when he had his 1st girlfriend, I learnt a feeling I never should have learnt - Jealousy. The sourness

2003-09-02T15:54:00.000+08:00

took this from an email sent from my fren, tot it is v touching n meaningful..... Tree === The reason I'm called tree is because I'm good at painting trees. Overtime I start to use a tree on the right hand corner as a trademark for all my watercolors painting. I have dated 5 gals when I was in Pre-U. There's one gal who I love a lot but never dare go after her. She doesn't have a pretty

2003-08-30T23:46:00.000+08:00

juz can't find any time to blog these days..... been busy with the fyp and projs..... haiz the other day when i was in my father's car, heard the radio discussing on the recent hot topic: the cutting of CPF payment for the bosses and increase of GST. haiz........ stupid! stupid! stupid!!! hate Spore! or rather i hate the government in spore........ decreasing the workers $$, while increasing the

2003-08-26T17:08:00.000+08:00

din go to sch today.... coz my stomach was not feeling well.... i'm afraid that i have to look for toilet in the middle of the day.... lol.... well partly also becoz i'm half an hr late for sch.... so might as well not go tot of doing some ACAN at home.... din try to do any at home be4 this, so when i try to open the files, it failed to open! there's this char.dll tat's missing..... argh! so

2003-08-23T20:11:00.000+08:00

yesterday, went to NUS Law library again.... lol really lk tat place more than NTU, don ask me y thou.....!! lol..... wanted to go out after which but no program available...... partly also becoz i'm down with flu..... :< cough n cough n cough, n running nose, n tired, n low mood..... however it is a fri nite after all, haha so i asked some frenz ovr to my house to play mahjong!! some hesitates

2003-08-20T12:16:00.000+08:00

think i wrote too much the night be4!! lol.... cannot blame was really happy since i come back...... my new principle to life will be to be more generous at heart, not to be so strict, so picky in life..... hehe this is wat i learned from my cousins.... they din earned alot in Batam but yet, they were so generous in lots of things, maybe to me onli, but from wat i see, i shall learn...... their

2003-08-19T00:42:00.000+08:00

hahaha back i am back!!! lol.. yes reached spore from batam at early afternoon today! it's ard 3 days 2 nite holiday..... ok i am actually there to celebrate my granny's 80th birthday, then to come home yesterday afternoon, but since there was no sch today, and indonesia was celebrating national day yesterday, and today is a holiday, so i decided to forgo my parents n stayed behind for another

2003-08-16T02:53:00.000+08:00

went out with my long "lost" secondary sch frenz today..... heeeee...... it was a happy day leh..... hasn't been out with with them for quite some time, actually tot i will not be able to fit in initially..... but it turned out to be btr than i tot!! haha It is lk the other frenz i hung out with are mostly don have curfew, hang out late ones....... but this grp were lk have to go home early,

2003-08-14T21:41:00.000+08:00

just finished watching chemistry.... altho i missed it for god knows how many weeks, i still am able to understand wat's going on!! lol... There's this line in today's epi: "it is not easy to find someone u love, and loves u back.... so wat, if the guy's attached... y not just be a bitch this once and tell him how u feel, let him make the decision to choose....." hmmm this sentence really make

2003-08-13T10:34:00.000+08:00

seems lk quite a no. of ppl are facing "socialising" problem.... mi is no exception... Been doing alot of thinking, maybe it is a time for me to cool things off, n look for a new direction once again.... din bother to think abt who's real or fake, coz i think i haven been so real after all... Gotta really gather myself altogether be4 i am carefree again..... I know avoiding is not a gd solution

2003-08-12T10:17:00.000+08:00

am tired... so tired of trying and everything..... wat's gonna stay will stay... wat's leaving will leave.... wat's coming will come..... i will not try, not force, not think, not bothered abt everything anymore..... sui yuan ba

2003-08-09T21:39:00.000+08:00

did a new background.... nothing special... i just no longer lk the earlier pic, so decided to change it... add this picture thingy, will put any pic tat i lk from now on mood wasn't pretty today.... :< haiz...... Parents were not at home today.... everyone seems to have something on... haiz, suddenly felt lonely.... think is bcoz of av ba..... haiz...... maybe shd really hide myself in a cave..

2003-08-09T15:49:00.000+08:00

went town yesterday to celebrate fren'z belated bday.... haha the guys were so crappy and i laughed till my tears almost rolled down... today is National day! but i've got no program...:< rotting at home... parents will not be home tonite.... gd n no gd at the same time... haiz some questions to ponder: >Puzzle 1 A wealthy man had been counting his money. When he finished, he accidentally left

2003-08-07T21:12:00.000+08:00

oh ya! got a gd news, i've joined a contest organised by singnet earlier.... heee and i've got selected! Well the price is a cheesecake, n so i am suppose to go n collect it.... hehe wonder isit really because i wrote a satisfactory msg, or isit tat nobody bothers to join and that's the reason i've got choosen!! lol

2003-08-07T21:09:00.000+08:00

saddening... a hotel in Jakarta was attacked by terrorist few days ago.... and i think the no. of death just increased to 16... haiz our FYP grp had a changed of teacher in-charge today.... din lk him! :< So short, so small size, so dark, tok so soft, so girlie, like ah gua.... think he is a gay sia!!!!! hmph! ]:< Think he don lk me sia.... say i am happily shaking leg since now the interface n

2003-08-06T01:43:00.000+08:00

in my audio class today, the lecturer said something like this: "we people r getting very visual, sight is taking ovr most of our senses......" Thinking abt it, i do agree with him..... we r depending so much on our sight these days, it has so unknowingly, secretly taken ovr our hearing, sense of touch, smelling and even tasting..... Sometimes i think we shd really close our eyes to listen to the

2003-08-04T23:04:00.000+08:00

recently i was pondering who r really my frenz, who deserve me to put my whole attention and mood in..... it is so tiring n disappointing to realise u r not as important in their life..... doing some filtering now.... dono wat will be the outsome, nor know isit gd or bad.......... wonder wonder.....

2003-08-03T22:51:00.000+08:00

was in such low mood days ago..... haiz... things which don't wanna n don wish to brought it up again..... Tkz gal, for being there when i need someone.... dono if u will see it thou.... haha hmmm ever try be4, consoling someone when u urself is in a low mood?! haaa well, sort of taking my attention away ba.... haiz... My fren juz so suddenly broke off.... erm... maybe not sudden... rather, we

2003-08-02T18:05:00.000+08:00

hmm... haiz.....

2003-08-01T22:30:00.000+08:00

was kind of tired after a swim earlier in the day.... but still decided to go to orchard..... heee have some fun though.... recently i realised i had forgotten alot of feelings spent with frenz tat was enjoyable, peaceful, happy...... heeee Life is always lk this... onli when u rest for awhile on ur "charge" forward, and turn back, will u find wat u've lost unknowingly..... was toking to my

2003-07-29T22:09:00.000+08:00

am falling sick.... din know y, when i reach sch, my troat suddenly hurts damn lot... then sore throat till i can't talk... and i still can't tok now.... haiz... the feeling sux when u can't tok..... and my fren ask me to shutup!!! :< lol... I wanna go KTV leh..... haiz..... Seems lk it is a bad period where alot of ppl are falling sick.....

2003-07-29T00:34:00.000+08:00

*phew i was so lucky earlier..... Just as i reached bedok mrt station, and was coming out from the underground, was actually going to take a puff.... then suddenly i had this tot tat, wat if my bro happens to be ard n saw me..... so natuarally i turned ard to look.... soooooooo coincidently, my bro was standing on the escalator beside mine behind me!!!! so scary..... real shock... if he was

2003-07-27T23:48:00.000+08:00

today was both a maddening yet happy day for me..... earlier was so fustrated with my fren for being irresponsible.... at least in my eyes.... Then after i went to zoo, see the damn funny sealion show, i was happy again... then we went to see the penguins..... they r soooo cute... don mind adopting one, if i can! tot my rest of the day will be well.... but it was too early an assumption....! i

2003-07-26T22:13:00.000+08:00

today is a boring day, so let's juz forget abt today.... heard from radio abt the way diff astro signs react to stress, few days ago.... notice Aquarious is the longest n most detailed astro, tat is becoz its MY sign.... lol... n i have a short term mem... so this is all i can rem.... sorry to those not mentioned ---------------------------------------------------------------------------------

2003-07-26T00:29:00.000+08:00

comp's finally back in shape.... so i can start work already.... haiz i sense the stress coming..... touch 3D max just a while ago.... and i realised i had forgotten every thing learned in yr2.... :< haiz.... abit scared of going back to do it now.... stressed.... i realised our fyp is going too slow.... have onli 5 months or so to profuce a prototype.... and i haven experiment on the codes,

2003-07-24T13:08:00.000+08:00

yea web1000 finally works.... lol New pic for my webby..... can't think of different layout tho.... heee hmmm read a novel earlier.... there's this sentence: onli close family members will quarrel... i guess this also applies to frenz ba.... Quarrelling is hurting, maddening... but isn't it btr than silence? silence bet frenz, family members, can only mean the feeling is not strong... something