You have a Lost Soul. No one is really sure what
that can always mean, because it can be defined
in many ways. As Legend goes, lost souls were
the spirits of passed away people who are
neither in heaven nor hell. They walk the
earth, brooding mysteriously, always appearing
when you expect it least. So hence, if you have
a Lost Soul, then you are probably very
insecure and shy. Stuck in your own little box,
you watch the world fly by as a loner. You dont
know your place. You seemingly dont have a
place in society or an interest. You are a very
capricious person, and are confused and
frustrated about where you belong. You crave
for the sense and feeling of home-but have not
obtained it yet.


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2:37 PM

FROZEN QUEEN
You dont want love to come through to you. You like
it the way you are. To be unreachable, no need
to show feelings. Hiding everything inside you.
You are already used to it. You say yourself
that you dont need anyone, that you stand on
your own two feet or that you dont have time
for these things. But in reality you are scared
to get hurt. You feel save where you are: by
yourself, nobody can hurt you there. You
invent your own relationship in your dreams.
You just need to know that you COULD get a
partner.

-_-'''



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2:33 PM

forced myself to change the speakers last nite..... kekeke..... work till pretty late so i onli get to test it out this afternoon..... it was v nice..... thou onli 2.1, i think it is really gd enough since my room is small n cramp with things..... kekeke

spent this afternoon cleaning out my room too..... thou there's still alot of things, but it is much presentable now.... hur hur..... achievement!



(one of the speaker on my left.... stylo?)


(the controller for the volume n bass level)

picture taken with my new webcam, the resolution is v bad, but the price tells all rite?! cant expect much with cheap stuff....


11:52 PM

think i sounded overly heavy in last entry, actually i not feeling much when i was writing the entry.... lol....

i guess i got out from the wrong side of bed today.... got a v bad stiff neck now, felt heaty..... in conclusion guess i am falling sick.... zzz


found this article on net yesterday....
'I’m giving people permission to say, ‘This is OK.’ You do not have to feel shameful, degraded, bad, sinful. Sex is a beautiful part of life.'

— Kim Airs(Owner, Grand Opening)
(hopefully the link still works)


try this.
My score is 140.
Neither your left brain nor your right brain are dominate. With few exceptions, you use both sides equally and have ability in both. In many ways, you have the best of both worlds, because you don't see things from a narrow viewpoint, you're even tempered, balanced, and you have a good head on your shoulders.
(conclude: all-rounder, good brain.... wahhahaha)



1:41 PM

this morning was listening to the radio when they were toking abt sporeanz' attitude..... i find it quite true.... we have been in a well protected environment such tat we are like some spoilt brat....... for example, in other countries, ppl will scold, say watever foul languages, and the next min, things will be just like normal again..... but in spore, whenever this type of thing happens, law will be brought in..... there's no human relationship (chinese: ren qing) in this society at all...... sigh

can we say this is all the government's fault? surpressing all the things tat were seem immoral, eg. flashing of the middle finger to another person(i din realise this is illegal until today).... by stating law law n law.... they were lk trying soooo hard to make sporeanz become cuturalize ppl, controling gestures, language and even thinking..... and we were actually changing without noticing..... however, no matter how we act or talk, when the character in each's soul is remains unchange, ppl is just still a bunch of babarics.....

from my point of view, sporeanz were so stuck up, so kiasu, so fucking irritating, is all becoz they knew the law will protect them..... so long as the law will not be against them, they do watever they like..... and also, being under so much restriction, so much control and stress, we no longer cares abt others..... me, myself and i, is the most important thing..... sigh

din know y, i was thinking tat the glamourous time for spore has stopped..... she has stopped moving forward, in fact this ship seems to be sinking, as long as the government is still doing things at the way they did for now, we will be dragged down by this ship one day............


10:29 PM

finally overcome my abit of my laziness, opened up the package of the speakers i bought on sat..... had a really damn hard time looking for its startup manual...... and it is kept between the sub-woofer n the styrofoam holding it..... -_-'

but now it is siting on the ground at its corner, still intact in its plastic covers...... lol as i said, i overcome abit of my laziness.... zzzz.... hopefully will replace the old speakers by end of this wk......

had a nice time at work today, was asked to help packed the completed cd-rom..... then see "show". lol notice alot of other old creative stuffs don lk tat bitch too..... kekeke YEAH!


11:16 PM

k i'm back to normal more or less ba.... *shrug* lol had a really great time yesterday..... in the early afternoon, i went to mit my yue4 nan2 nan4 ming2 jie3 mei4, lol, to go crash those open houses of uniz.......

first stop, nus, sooo many ppl, and hot day! wanna go ktv rite there n then lol.... i am quite int in the comp sci.... coz there's this communication n media in its second yr...... something related to our current course..... second stop, sim, like the environment v v much! it was soooo quiet n peaceful..... then the ppl, as in lecturers, were v nice! funny, frenly, nice..... not lk typical lecturers tat look at ppl throu their noserils.... might reg there when both big uni reject my application ba.... yupz, i've applied today.... communication studies n business in ntu, comp sci, art/social and business in nus.......

after sim, we decided tat it's all for the day.... keke.... cannot blame us, the weather was soooo disgusting, and the materials we need to know can actually be found on web..... so we went to eat roti prata, n played pool, with another guy joining us...... had really a fun time! mi and tat witch, just keep toking cok, suaning the guy, make fun, laugh n laugh... keke

then went to creative warehouse, which is on sale for past few days.... bought a webcam for $39!!! cheap rite? lol and a 2.1 speaker for $200....!! mum promised to pay half for the speakers, so i decided to buy it after much consideration... keke.... was so lazy, sigh, speaker still siting there at the corner, din have the mood to unwrap it... lol.... just installed the web cam thou.... was quite clear, at least i am satisfied with it yet.... keke.... and it is a portable digi cam too, small, slim.....

it was v heavy, so the guy carry it all the way where we went to lot1 to catch movie, but there's none to suit our time.... so went to eat n sit at Mac.... tat is when we get so bored tat we started to play with coins! -_-" rite? but then we actually make ourselves so happy with a few coins n make quite alot of noise.... lk some small kids... lol.... laugh till my headache comes.... dono y thou.... then the speakers went home with the guy, and i drove down at 1am to get it from him!!!! still went for supper too, reach home at 3+ !! lucky parents din say/ask anything abt mi gg out last nite.... keke.... they cancelled the outing to sentosa today.. else i sure have to take mc, thou tat is not such a bad idea.... lol


12:26 AM

passed by siglap road for the past 2 days, dragged out some memories...... rem some time ago when my best budd was drunk, vomiting by the roadside, lying there too.... lol..... remind me of the place where my budd first know of mi smoking, was shocked? disappointed? i not sure..... but the pub we frequented closed some time ago, replaced by another..... onli a few short visits, but the memories are planted deeply in my mind.......

been 20 for almost a month, but i found tat my thinking were no different when i was 18+...... grown in age but not in soul? *shrug*..... getting older as yrs flew past, but i realise i am seeing more n more ugly n disgusting sight of this world....... world is so dark..... the sun seems to have been consumed by darkness, coldness...... brrr....

feel tat by keeping myself in a corner, in my own region is much much more safe these days..... am so disappointed when u onli get cold stares, hurting replies when u tried to be frenly to others..... so many ppl just give cold shoulder to others these days, mayb they've experience the situation of being treated as an idiot when they try to be frenly? maybe i will just be lk one of them in yrs to come? mayb, i am already lk this?? *shivers* so cold.... so tired.....


12:38 AM

sososo angry today..... so i concluded is a bad day for me... :< shd have known btr than to go squeeze the miserable toilet at the time of going home..... and have to met tat stupid bitch! if i were a dog, there and then, i would have jumped up and bite off her stupid nose, scarring her forever and ever after!!!!! the matter was too shameful to be told, so gals(u 2 noe who u r) not say anything.... pls.... damn damn damn..... my fren who is from sp on attachment too had said tat she wished to take a ragsack to cover her up and walloped her be4 running off, and noe this is when i really really wish it really happen!! bitch bitch bitch!!! argghhh! am so angry tat i felt tears welling up again.....


When i am all alone in the dark, u crept up to me quietly, slowly occupying every inch of my mind, my heart.... When i am falling, falling into this bottomless dark hole, u again overpowering every bit of my will, appearing sneakily into my sight...... When sad songs were playing on my radio, u just mangae to squeeze urself out of the dark corner and out throu my eyes..... Even when i'm so angry tat my head was abt to blow, u wanted to have a part in it too...... In times lk this, u grew stronger, and i grew weaker, until, u conquer me without fail.... Maybe it is just me who grew weaker n weaker, with nothing to do with u.....

Yupz, ppl call it as crying, a way to let out ur feelings, while I know it as a weakness, a weakness tat shd not be shown in public nor to others..... i am crying...? am i really?.....



watched Honey today..... not bad a show.... songs were great, dance n gals were hot..... but plot was cheesy.... am going out with mj n co., finally.... lol.... hope it will be a btr day than today........


11:50 PM

been slping late this few days, coz i always stayed up in the night reading my book, memoirs of a geishar..... now in the office, with my soul still on my bed at home....

the other day was having my lunch, when a gal on a scooter rode by..... she was stunning! coz i saw a few other ppl, following in her direction as she pass by.... well, she was wearing a red, helmet that covers half a head one (suzi, the ones u like), and above that, her scooter was bright red, almost the same color as her helmet.... then she wore skirt, pink, those that will flatter around as the wind blows..... haha sooooo... stylo... lol... not as in cool type of stylo, but i think she got her own style that i noe no words to describe keke...


years ago, u were the lights in my life, years later, u were no more than some form of entertainment for that particular few hours..... happiness that lingers around the atmosphere for a moment and disappears together with the smoke into the air, no more heart filling nor heart-warming like it shd be......
i am sorry for this to happen, but i think it happen so naturally and quietly that i din really realise onli after a stupid gathering, that was actually with the purpose to celebrate her bday.... surprisingly, i aint that agitated nor angry nor more upset for more than a minute........ fact is a fact, things changed, so does people....


10:27 AM

was staring at this screen a few hrs ago, and gave up on blogging..... now back at staring..... din noe wat to write, but wanted to write......

feeling pretty shitty, easily agitated.... i know my patient isnt so gd, so is temper..... but not as easily provoked.... i guess....

i always hear/see those couples saying: i love u FOREVER...., i will never let u go for watever reasons..... etc etc.... haiz.... and from quite young, i had this idea of not lking ppl saying this type of things, coz it nvr come true..... "don make promises which u cannot keep it" a sentence i heard from a fren.... *shrug* i am easily influenced.....

just today heard of this stupid bitch, my fren'z gf... lol..... Her attitude change even faster than the weather! one min was pretty ok, the nxt, she wanted breakup...... n became v cruel..... y? only god knows..... then can still have the cheek to ask my fren accompany for show, and yet acting lk a stranger..... worse, can have the cheek to ask for help...... din noe wat other words to describe her..... bitch, bitch.... a living insult to us women.....


10:28 PM

am feeling so so so bored, tired, irritated, agitated.... u name it, i felt it..... might be the cup of coffee i have just finished.... :<

still stuck in the office doing stupid flash, numbers, numbers, numbers, algebras too, argh! going mad......

listening to Kelly Clarkson - A Moment Like This.... dono y, dono how, tears find its way to my eyes.... but it din flow out.... nope, just wet my eyes.............


4:30 PM