juz can't find any time to blog these days..... been busy with the fyp and projs..... haiz

the other day when i was in my father's car, heard the radio discussing on the recent hot topic: the cutting of CPF payment for the bosses and increase of GST. haiz........ stupid! stupid! stupid!!! hate Spore! or rather i hate the government in spore........ decreasing the workers $$, while increasing the living expenses in spore!! wont tat onli make the bankruptcy higher in spore?! wat the hell did they contain in their "great" minds....... always saying spore is not patriotic, always looking forward to get out of here...... but did they realise its them who make life so tough for everybody, forcing people to migrate?!

whenever they increase something, they say they believe singaporeans can afford becoz of CPF, then now, the CPF is cut by 4%..... they still increases expenses! this 4% cut is a cut for all employers so tat they saved 4% on each workers to pay for their CPF..... this might mean little difference to employers, but it means a monthly cut of ard 100 for all workers! then apart from all this shits, they still set some stupid rule on taking $$ out from ur CPF when u have retire...... wat is the main reason?! of coz is tat, at the time u r dead, ur CPF still contains $$, it is transfered to ur children..... n so on... when there's some amt keeps circling, they have more $$, somehow..... all ppl strived so damn hard, r so as to pay those fucking suckers........


11:46 PM

din go to sch today.... coz my stomach was not feeling well.... i'm afraid that i have to look for toilet in the middle of the day.... lol.... well partly also becoz i'm half an hr late for sch.... so might as well not go

tot of doing some ACAN at home.... din try to do any at home be4 this, so when i try to open the files, it failed to open! there's this char.dll tat's missing..... argh! so irritated... :< Felt tat i wasted a day now..... i wished i had went to sch today man..... Audio had to be handed up by this fri.... haiz... wonder if i had the time to do it now..... soooooo pek cek now...... whenever something is wrong, really v irritated with everything....! Really feel lk quiting sch........


5:08 PM

yesterday, went to NUS Law library again.... lol really lk tat place more than NTU, don ask me y thou.....!! lol..... wanted to go out after which but no program available...... partly also becoz i'm down with flu..... :< cough n cough n cough, n running nose, n tired, n low mood.....

however it is a fri nite after all, haha so i asked some frenz ovr to my house to play mahjong!! some hesitates whether they shd come anot..... ONLY after i said i will be fetching them here THEN they cfm straight away!! lol wow really driving ard spore last nite...... imagine i went to woodlands! then to boon lay! to fetch frenz!!! haha (but got suan by father thou) Wat to do?! i wanted to play mahjong last nite! hahaha i was still sick n losing my voice fast, but with them ard my voice got worse!! coz i laugh n laugh n laugh throughout the nite!! so result = no voice today! hahaha

wanted to watch Homerun very much!! :< but no one will accompany go watch sia! my fren said she wanted to watch too..... but she stay in woodlands!!! so to mit up is v v tough..... haiz.....
i am missing the nite i spend at "the peak"...............


8:11 PM

think i wrote too much the night be4!! lol.... cannot blame was really happy since i come back......

my new principle to life will be to be more generous at heart, not to be so strict, so picky in life..... hehe this is wat i learned from my cousins.... they din earned alot in Batam but yet, they were so generous in lots of things, maybe to me onli, but from wat i see, i shall learn...... their attitude was lk everything also can so long as they are happy, and they will do it! haha

looking back at my previous entries, i found tat i had been so unhappy bcoz i keep thinking of all the unneccessaries..... "when one keeps looking back at the past, they are not living well in the present".... I heard this from one of my teacher in the past.... true thou! lol... so i shall be living one day as the day passes, n each day shall be as happy if not happier than each day................


12:16 PM

hahaha back i am back!!! lol.. yes reached spore from batam at early afternoon today! it's ard 3 days 2 nite holiday.....

ok i am actually there to celebrate my granny's 80th birthday, then to come home yesterday afternoon, but since there was no sch today, and indonesia was celebrating national day yesterday, and today is a holiday, so i decided to forgo my parents n stayed behind for another day.... lol!! i just tag along my cousin, jay.... He has borrowed his company car, so wherever he goes he just brings me along, he is still as handsome as ever! haaa but he's gotten abit fat....... but still a charming man...!! ahhahhaha

First day i had my first dinner in a restaurant in Batam..... the place was great, it was drizzling, so the rain forms little ripples on the pond all ard us! but the place so too vast n dark to allow me to capture a gd shot.... k so we cut cakes, photos, n eat! there's just so damn lots of food man! actually there was onli 5 dishes, but 3 plates of each!!!! and one corner was the children so the result is, there's lots n lots of leftovers from tat corner! so it got passed to my corner where is lk a rubbish bin, everything unfinished was thrown here... lol! Lucky i din take any rice then, but it was then an excuse for my cousin to push almost everything to me!!! whaha oh ya, he was beside me then, we sat at the chairman seats! haha. The prawns were so nice! so were the crabs! but others were bad.... so i ate a great numbers of prawns!! mostly forced by cousin to finished it!! haha. i dono how they cooked the prawns, think is stir fry, or wat, and then there's also deep fried prawn, chilli crab..... *slurp* so i ate n ate n ate..... haha but think the dinner was not cheap! well, it was a restaurant, somehow or other........

then after dinner, went back to 3rd uncle's house, there's 3 cakes!! man! i brought 2 and they've bought another in Batam.... well, they cut up my 2 cakes, which i juz manage to take one mouth each for the cakes, coz i was lk going to explode from eating too much!!! damn! it was a nice cake! especially the cheesecake! haha i noe alot of them din get to taste it thou...... then at nite, i went home with my cousin, his mum went to 4th uncle's house along with my parents n uncles to play mahjong... so mi, jay n his sis, mei, went home..... but then mei was going on a holiday at some other island the other day, so she went back home alone..... heee so left me n jay, he brought me to the disco ovr there!! haha and after a whole day of tolerating, i finally took his cig to smoke! haha i just can't stand it! Actually was quite afraid at the place, it was so big, so many strangers, so many ppl shaking heads..... the music was not to my liking, i clung dearly to jay as we moved thro the place, he tok to a few frenz, then asked if i am bored..... i tot i might pull down his mood to party, so i decided to go home first....... i went home n he was off to the disco again... lol... mei was still awake so we tok tok until quite late i think........

i din really took much notice of the time over there! just let the time runs man... so early in the morning i was awaken, mei wanted me to go to the island with her..... after 12 hrs of consideration whether i wanted to go, i finally decided i cannot make it on time tat morning! so i just tag along as jay send the gals to harbour..... then we went to my 4th uncle's house to join my parents. mi n my cousin sat down at the mahjong table to take over our uncle n parents as they were dead beat! played the whole nite mahjong!! haaaa facing all the expects, i had managed to win some big money!!! lol.... my luck was really helping me tat morning..... then we went to do some shopping, eat, n send my parents n uncle, auntie to the harbour..... the first time i am leaving my parents to stay behind..... heeee

as mei was away, i can onli stick to jay the rest of the day, we went to alot of malls, buy friuits, cig, gums.... din do much actually.... he don lk to shop! just lk most of other guys...... haha then i tot i saw a shirt i wanted, so i told him, haha he went with me to take a look, n admitted it was the first time he went with a gal to do shopping!! haha so damn funny! he's got soooo many frens ard.... so almost every mall, he's got frenz ovr there... so walk walk, tok tok, sit sit...... his frenz got asked him: "ur gf ar?" haha he say no lar, i'm his sis..... haha then we had our dinner at his godma's house coz there's another bday ovr there..... thou i am not related, i manage to get a free dinner!! lol the food was gd! v gd!

at nite he drive me ard to see the buildings, and also the richest guy's house.... got security... scare scare.... then we went to this pub in hotel at a hill, called the peak it was v beautiful!! oversee all of batam.... wat's lacking was stars n moon..... it was a romantic nite.... lol the scene was beautiful... songs were rite.... haiz... now became my beautiful memories.....

Batam was a chaos.... unlike spore, laws rules law rules...... they do have tat over there, but i learnt everything is do able as long as u have the $$! i actually quite lk tat "logic", at least it was a free world, u just have to find ur own way of living, of working things out!but of coz being able to hang ard without having to think of $, or work now will always be good no matter where u might be living in now..... i will look forward to go there nxt time..... i wonder when...........


12:42 AM

went out with my long "lost" secondary sch frenz today..... heeeee...... it was a happy day leh.....

hasn't been out with with them for quite some time, actually tot i will not be able to fit in initially..... but it turned out to be btr than i tot!! haha It is lk the other frenz i hung out with are mostly don have curfew, hang out late ones....... but this grp were lk have to go home early, very tired, alot of "healthy" activities going on, etc...... haha it was such extremes between my grps of frenz!!

one of my fren has brought her bf along today.... caught a few glimes, heard he is a part- time model..... lol not bad looking.... etc.... but definitely not my type..... hahah abit envious.......... Having someone at ur side, with special place in ur heart and u being in his heart is always so gd...... isnt it?!


2:53 AM

just finished watching chemistry.... altho i missed it for god knows how many weeks, i still am able to understand wat's going on!! lol...

There's this line in today's epi: "it is not easy to find someone u love, and loves u back.... so wat, if the guy's attached... y not just be a bitch this once and tell him how u feel, let him make the decision to choose....."

hmmm this sentence really make sense, especially the guy's gf in the show was a bitch.... but it is always not so in real situation, where the gf will be an innocent n gd gal......... Who will be able to take this "advice" into their mind when they are really in this type of situation?! haha to be a bitch or to be a gd gal with high moral? This is a big fight between love and moral...... and guilty... and others.........


9:41 PM

seems lk quite a no. of ppl are facing "socialising" problem.... mi is no exception... Been doing alot of thinking, maybe it is a time for me to cool things off, n look for a new direction once again.... din bother to think abt who's real or fake, coz i think i haven been so real after all... Gotta really gather myself altogether be4 i am carefree again..... I know avoiding is not a gd solution to everything, but recently i just wanna avoid some "frenz"........ watever.... watever...........



suddenly i lk this song alot.......


10:34 AM

am tired... so tired of trying and everything..... wat's gonna stay will stay... wat's leaving will leave.... wat's coming will come..... i will not try, not force, not think, not bothered abt everything anymore..... sui yuan ba


10:17 AM

did a new background.... nothing special... i just no longer lk the earlier pic, so decided to change it... add this picture thingy, will put any pic tat i lk from now on

mood wasn't pretty today.... :< haiz...... Parents were not at home today.... everyone seems to have something on... haiz, suddenly felt lonely.... think is bcoz of av ba..... haiz...... maybe shd really hide myself in a cave.... get away from everything here.........


mood: gu pi....


9:39 PM

went town yesterday to celebrate fren'z belated bday.... haha the guys were so crappy and i laughed till my tears almost rolled down...

today is National day! but i've got no program...:< rotting at home... parents will not be home tonite.... gd n no gd at the same time... haiz

some questions to ponder:
>Puzzle 1
A wealthy man had been counting his money. When he finished,
he accidentally left a $100.00 bill on his desk. But when he
returned for it a short while later, it was gone. Only two
other persons could have seen the bill. One was the maid and
the other was the butler.
The maid told him that she had hidden it for safekeeping under
a green book that was on the desk. But when they looked for
the bill was not there. The butler said he had found the bill
where the maid had left it. He had placed it inside the book,
where he thought there was less chance that would find it. He
had written down the page numbers so that he would not forget
them. The bill was between pages 35 and 36, he said. But
when they looked, there was no money in the book.
After Mr Ellis had talked to the maid and the butler, he
called the police. He was sure he knew who had taken the
money. Who was it, and how did he know?

>Puzzle 2
I dig out tiny caves, and store gold and silver in them. I
also build bridges of silver and make crowns of gold. They are
the smallest you could imagine. Sooner or later everybody
needs my help, yet many people are afraid to let me help them.
Who am I?

>Puzzle 3
I have seven letters. The first two stand for a boy. The first
three stand for a girl. The first four stand for a brave boy.
But all of my letters stand for a brave girl. What word am I?

>Puzzle 4
A beggar's brother died, but the man who died had no brother.
How could this be?

>Puzzle 5
David is the son of Jane.
Jane is _____ of David's Mother.


3:49 PM

oh ya! got a gd news, i've joined a contest organised by singnet earlier.... heee and i've got selected! Well the price is a cheesecake, n so i am suppose to go n collect it.... hehe wonder isit really because i wrote a satisfactory msg, or isit tat nobody bothers to join and that's the reason i've got choosen!! lol


9:12 PM

saddening... a hotel in Jakarta was attacked by terrorist few days ago.... and i think the no. of death just increased to 16... haiz

our FYP grp had a changed of teacher in-charge today.... din lk him! :< So short, so small size, so dark, tok so soft, so girlie, like ah gua.... think he is a gay sia!!!!! hmph! ]:< Think he don lk me sia.... say i am happily shaking leg since now the interface n everything is not done... blah blah.... argh!!! *sob*
But frankly speaking............ he is gd........ much as i not wish to admit, but he is much btr than the earlier teacher..... altho he did give us alot of pressure, press us all v hardly, have high expectation n strict, he is actually able to help us get a clear direction on how shd we do our proj...... Guess by doing this, will we be able to buck up and start to get the things ongoing...... HAIZ..........

filtered list is on the way..... din realise it could be quite long.... haiz


9:09 PM

in my audio class today, the lecturer said something like this: "we people r getting very visual, sight is taking ovr most of our senses......" Thinking abt it, i do agree with him..... we r depending so much on our sight these days, it has so unknowingly, secretly taken ovr our hearing, sense of touch, smelling and even tasting..... Sometimes i think we shd really close our eyes to listen to the surrounding, to feel the environment, to smell at the fresh air.... most important of all to use our heart to "understand" all the love, feelings ard us.......


1:43 AM

recently i was pondering who r really my frenz, who deserve me to put my whole attention and mood in..... it is so tiring n disappointing to realise u r not as important in their life..... doing some filtering now.... dono wat will be the outsome, nor know isit gd or bad.......... wonder wonder.....


11:04 PM

was in such low mood days ago..... haiz... things which don't wanna n don wish to brought it up again..... Tkz gal, for being there when i need someone.... dono if u will see it thou.... haha

hmmm ever try be4, consoling someone when u urself is in a low mood?! haaa well, sort of taking my attention away ba.... haiz... My fren juz so suddenly broke off.... erm... maybe not sudden... rather, we din contact for quite some time and so i din noe the unhappiness along the way ba..... Anyway, seeing my fren crying really breaks my heart..... i dono wat to do... especially, we r in my car.... and then her gd fren is with us.... haiz... its been so long since i last saw her breaks down..... so sorry, din really have much of a private talk with u.......
sometimes when ppl r at a lost, and starts to ask around for ways to solutions, i dono.... i will just throw back more questions to them.... lol i dono isit gd or bad.... but i think tat nobody except urself will be able to make the choices, coz u r the one having all the love and feelings, no others will be able to understand.... so sometimes when i heard others telling their frenz, u shd do wat do wat, it is just so........ shallow....

today, fiona drives..... so we went to beaches to take pictures.... hmmm they were v late... so i was at pasir ris park alone first..... went ard to take some pic, and i realise there r so many places which is fun..... i realise i din go to pasir ris park in the day at all.... So i saw alot of families, children..... children was catching fishes, in the small pond..... then at the beach, children playing with the sand, water..... such a nice picture..... watever troubles, unhappiness u might have will juz be blown away by the wind, n washed off by sea.......... Then when going home, my fren lets me drove to my house.... heee, its been sooo long since i last drove a manual.... was unsteady at first, but soon got it going.... :> To day was a not bad day........


10:51 PM

hmm... haiz.....


6:05 PM

was kind of tired after a swim earlier in the day.... but still decided to go to orchard..... heee have some fun though....

recently i realised i had forgotten alot of feelings spent with frenz tat was enjoyable, peaceful, happy...... heeee Life is always lk this... onli when u rest for awhile on ur "charge" forward, and turn back, will u find wat u've lost unknowingly.....

was toking to my fren abt y i din have a commentary in my blog..... well i guess partly is bcoz i wanted ppl to use the tag-board i had.... i've seen others where ppl will use commentary instead of tag-board..... so i see no need for the cammentary.... mayb ppl wans to tok abt tat certain topic i've posted.... but i think bcoz this is my blog, so even if u r toking abt a post few days back, i think i will know it..... And then we were complaining abt all our frenz who juz visit our site without saying anything..... hmmm haha think sometimes is really nothing to tok abt?! but plsssss say something ppl..... tok cok also can.... i am not not a crappy person.... haha... sound abit desperate? lol

i was hyper these few days!! getting abit mad! lol but this is lk last for a few days.... then i will become so quiet, lazy.... lazy to even tok...!! wahhaha


10:30 PM